[eartunes]: whatever song is currently playing on VH1. it's a nice song, i just don't know the name.
[mood]: pensive, i suppose.

hi everyone. it's me again.

i know it's been awhile since i've posted, but i'm back. for now. i'm not great shakes at updating things. a lot has happened this summer, but nothing too major. i've learned a lot this summer--about people. i've learned that there are a lot of people in my life i don't really trust, and for good reason. people can be really shady. or really self-centered.

but it's nice to know that now. it's nice to know that i can see people for what they are because next year it's a whole different school with all new people. something tells me that a school full of acting students isn't going to be one big happy trusting, honest people.

ehh.
i dunno what else to write about now.

just thought i'd give a brief update.

perhaps i'll be around a little more.

pee.ess: yeah. i know that the layout is crap (minus the picture of josh<3) maybe i'll fix it up...

[eartunes]: Barnum the Musical.
[mood]: happy.

i haven't written anything in awhile.
but here i am.
and i'm here to write.

let's see.
where should i start.

nothing too much has happened before yesterday.
the only thing i can think of is that i'm in a new show. Barnum. in it i play an old lady and a blues singer. woot. they're not HUGE parts or anything, but i don't mind. it'll be fun. and the people will be fun. like Trevor the choreographer. hahaha. he's my new friend. and i call him scones. but he doesn't know that yet.

so.
yesterday.
yesterday was the benefit concert for Sarah Miniger and we raised so much money for her and her family.
Sarah has been in an induced coma since march because when she's not in the coma she has seizures. no one knows what's wrong with her. the doctors say it's a virus, but i'm not sure if they really know for certain what's wrong.
the concert went really well, and after the past few weeks of stress and drama, it was all worth it.
i met so many wonderful people through this that i never new before [i will get into this a little more later] and we all met to help sarah. and ahh. it's just a nice thought.
but we were all there for sarah. that's the most important thing.

well. right after school that day before our final run through, adam, victor, and i all piled into adam's ghettomobile/deathtrap and headed off to waldameer so adam and victor could get their checks and we could all deposit them. [i had a check to deposit, too.] well, while we were there we were walking by the showtime theatre, and who should i see working there but Trevor!
i was so excited.
i wanted to wave to him, but though it'd be distracting, so i will just tell him i saw him at the next practice.

okay.
you know how i said "i will get into this a little more later"?
well.
here it goes.
i met a lot of new people through this benefit concert.
and i think i like one of them.
=]
well i knew who he was before, but we never talked, so i didn't really know him. but we've gotten to know eachother a little better though this and he's just one of the nicest, calmest, sweetest guys ever. and he's an amazing piano player. AMAZING. and so adorableeee.
okay.
so he's like 3 inches shorter than me.
and a junior.

=]

okay okay.
i'll stop now.
but one more thing.
even if nothing comes of it, i don't care. he's still a great friend.
and me, him, and victor are all gonna write a musical together.
i'm not kidding.

okay.
so.
imma gonna go now.
=]

[heart]
danielle

[eartunes]: the hissing of water as it runs through the pipes and the sound of the dryer and washer running...i think there's a coin in the dryer...
[mood]: satisfied...but still tired.

what a week.
what a week what a week.

i love NYC.
and i love the mission trip.
there's so much that happened, so i think i'll just do a day by day account.

SUNDAY:
although we didn't leave until monday morning [3AM], the trip really started Sunday night. after work, i went home and changed before heading off to church for Easter Sunday mass. it was the first time we had the teen mass on easter sunday, so it was a whole new experience for me to sing that mass. [although rich only had us singing one easter song...weird.]
after mass i raced home to pack all of my stuff for the trip, which i did in about an hour-hour and a half. i was very proud of myself. i then headed over to the field house where a bunch of the people going on the mission trip were spending the night. i brought some coldstone ice cream to share and we played some games and such. and prayed. it was fun and i didn't sleep at all that night.

MONDAY:
we got on the bus and left for NYC at 3AM, and after an 8 hour long bus ride in really cramped seats where i was unable to sleep for more than an hour or two, [i think i messed up my back,] we finally arrived at Damascus House...all the way up on 207th street. I shared a room with Tricia and Jillian on the first floor, which was great because i didn't have to lug my suitcases up any stairs.
after settling into our room and getting changed and such, we headed downtown to chinatown and little italy for some sight seeing and such. we rode the subway of course, which is always mucho fun even though the ride took an hour because our new place was closed and we couldn't stay there. [we used to stay at Grace House on 110th. much closer.]
before we went to chinatown, though, we stopped at this ginormous cathedral. it was seriously the biggest cathedral in the world. [not kidding. that's what the sign said.] we all went inside for a tour, and it was BEAUTIFUL. but just before we went in, my mom called....
mail came from AMDA and she was asking me if I wanted her to open it now or wait until i got home. she asked this because we've been waiting to hear whether or not i got into the school....i said she could open it now because i didn't want to have to wait all week to find out. it would just bother me. so she opened it while i was on the phone and...

I GOT IN!!!!!!!!

i was so excited. i really wasn't expecting it. all i could think was "why me? why did i get chosen over so many other people?" i certainly thanked God that day. i put my trust in him and apparently this is what he wants me to do in life. i would have been fine either way, for i still had Point Park to go to. but now i'm fairly positive that i'm following the path he wants me to. i think. i hope. i pray.
after that, we went to chinatown and i went around with Ashley, AJ, Buzas, Kara, Lauren, Maggie, Shorty, and Kevin to all of those shady places to buy stolen purses. hahaha. sooo much fun. i got a new purse which i love very much. [D&G] i also got a necklace with a big heart on it and a cute knitted hat. it was that day i noticed Buzas is like his dad. I didn't know either of them that well, but FM always talks about how Mr. Buzas is the guy who is at the end of the line making sure no one is left behind. and that's just what Chris Buzas did when we were up in those shady places. he's a nice guy. so is his dad. after that, Ashely, AJ, Buzas, and I then went to eat at some place in little italy, where i gave AJ the rest of the pasta i didn't want to finish. all in all it was a good time.

TUESDAY:
the first day of our days in the soup kitchens, and i went to Holy Apostle with Mr. Langer, Lauren, Will, Rikert, Bobby, and a few others that i don't remember. [sorry guys!] i helped serve the meals [i served desserts...which was fruit. i was confused too.] and i had a lot of fun. We met a guy named the King who was also working that day and what a character he was.
after we got back i got a lukewarm shower...you were lucky if you got that. only the truely blessed got hot showers. anyways, i chilled in my room for awhile while we waited for everyone to get back then we all got on the subway and headed downtown to Times Square. there I bought tickets to see Avenue Q with Tricia, and Jillian, Nathan, Fr. Mike, and Mrs. Roach got tickets for Pirate Queen [it's a new musical...i'm planning on seeing it with my mom when we go for my orientation.]
before our shows, [they started at 8,] Jillian, Tricia, Nathan, and I went to Roxy's for dinner and i got a swiss burger. oh man was it big. i was seriously burping up the taste of burger all night.
then we parted ways to go to our shows...and oh man. Avenue Q was so funny. I was dying. It's a very good show, but not one you'd want to see with your parents, unless your parents are cool like that. mine? not so much. it's certainly a show the Prep guys would like. Nathan and Jillian and them all enjoyed Pirate Queen a lot and their reviews are making me quite excited about seeing it. [actually, that's why i'm going to see it. that and because of the fact that the guys who wrote the show are the same people who wrote Les Miz.]

WEDNESDAY:
i went to Catholic Worker with Mrs. Roach, Megan, Joe, Rob, and some others. Although i don't think i'd touch the soup they made, i really liked it there. The workers were nice and some of the homeless who came in were a lot of fun. One guy tried to convince me that whenever he came in he was served steak, but i didn't believe it. finally he gave in. funny guy. and another man was joking with Megan and thanked her for the shrimp when she served him his soup.
when we got back was the start of the fiasco. we were supposed to go to a Mets game, depending on the weather, but we didn't end up going....unfortunaltely it was not because of the weather. [if it was we would have probably gone to Times Square again.] this was the day that Will ball-tapped Richer on the subway [well. not really ball-tapped. more of a tennis backhand. basically, will hit him really hard.] FM was furious. this was also the day when the chaperones found out about some of the things that were happening up on the 4th floor at night. there was the fight monday night, then last night Richer stacked up a whole bunch of chairs in front of Nathan's door as a joke then broke the water fountain as he was hurridly trying to put everything back before the chaperones found out.
at first we weren't sure if we were going anywhere, but we ended up going up to the area around where Grace House used to be. i don't even want to get into that night, because it wasn't exactly the most fun. but it's passed and i'm over it. i did eat at Tom's Restaraunt from Seinfeld.
back at Damascus House we had mass, which we had every night, and this time FM had us go around to every person there was and give a hug to each person as the sign of peace. i think i accidentally missed a few people, but i didn't mean to. i really liked the idea though.
after mass i went back to my room to open the birthday present my mom snuck into my bag and said i wasn't allowed to open until 10:20PM on my birthday. [I'M 18 NOW!] [obvioulsy it was much later than that, but oh well.] i opened it and it was this book of inspirational/motivation quotes that were accompanied by pictures of animals. my mom's weird. it's offical. but it was cute.

THURSDAY:
the final day of our trips to the soup kitchens. this time i went to Holy Trinity with Chris Peck, Rikert, Will, Amanda, Lauren, Shorty, Rob, and a couple others i don't remember the name of. this of course was the day it was pouring down rain...i forgot to change into my socks and shoes so i was walking around in my slippers...they got drenched. we also had a hard time trying to find the place, but we eventually got there and i had a good time, even though Rikert kept calling me gypsy and quoting Borat. i couldn't get away since i was serving food right next to him. funny kid, but he can get really annoying sometimes. i had fun though and really enjoyed the people we worked with. John the joke teller, Gloria with her heavy spanish accent, Carol, Lauren the control freak. interesting people. i particularly enjoyed it when Rikert was joking around and invited Gloria to a party he said we were having up at Damacus later [not true] and she replied "Hell no." with her spanish accent.
this was also our final night in Time Square, and probably the best night there EVER. we went to the TKTS booth, but Jillian and I couldn't find anything we wanted to see. Tricia wanted to see Hairspray, but we didn't want to see it [i had already seen it.] we finally came to a decision that Nathan and Tricia would go see hairspray and Jillian and I were going to go to see if there were any tickets left for Mary Poppins or Les Miz [we didn't really care about paying full price.] so off we went to Mary Poppins (we figured Les Miz was more likely to be sold out) while Nathan and Tricia ran off to Hairspray which started for them in about 15 minutes. [7:00 show.] Jillian and I got there only to find out that Mary Poppins was sold out, so we headed over to Les Miz.
when we got there, there was a sign on one of the windows that said Sold Out, and Jillian heard the people in front of us ask for three tickets only to be told the same thing the sign said. even though, Jillian asked if they had any tickets left.
"How many are you looking for?" the man in the window asked.
"Two," was Jillian's response.
"We have two in Orchestra."
"WE'LL TAKE THEM!"
so that is how we ended up getting the last two seats in the house to see Les Miz. for 111.25 each, we didn't care.
the show didn't start until 8 so we had about a half hour to kill. [we wanted to get there at 7:30] we stopped at Bubba Gump so Jillian could get a shirt, then we hit up a bagel shop where we got sesame bagels with stawberry cream cheese and i got a Fuze drink. mmm.
back at the theatre we waited for them to open the doors and we headed inside to discover that God really loved us that day. we didn't realize just how amazing row G seats 107 & 108 were until we sat down right in the middle of the row and counted how many rows we were away from the front of the stage. I've always liked the number 7, but that day i loved it even more.
shortly after that, i discovered that when i put my drink in my purse, i didn't close it all the way...now my purse smells like juice and my CD player doesn't work properly. [it still works, but not the same.] even that couldn't put a damper on my spirits, and i bought a program and Tshirt before we sat back down in out seats to watch the most amazing show ever.
i can't tell you how many times i cried during the show because i lost count. i was bawling by the end of the last number. such a great show. Jillian and I stayed after to get autographs. we got almost all of the main characters. =] it was good times. we finally headed back to the subway at 11:20 where Mr. Buzas and his son were waiting for us. great people those men. we didn't get back until 12:45 or so, but they didn't complain.
then we had the last mass of the week and i really enjoyed it...even though i had to fight hard to stay awake. when it came time to give the sign of peace again, FM said that tonight, just to give it to two people. when FM came right to me first, everything felt better. that was the moment i knew he was no longer mad at me, and the fact that he chose me over so many others made me feel special.
i didn't even mind singing "I am the Bread of Life"...even though i still don't know how that got on the list...

FRIDAY:
HOME SWEET HOME.
well. that's where we were headed.
FM told us at mass the previous night to meet in the chapel at 8:30, so naturally Jillian, Tricia, and I woke up at 8:35. the alarm i set for 7:00 went unheard because i forgot to take my phone off of vibrate. oops! what made it even better was that none of us had packed yet. miraculously we managed to pack everything in 15 minutes and we raced up to the chapel. I was very proud of my packing abilities that morning.
once the chaperones made a final sweep of the rooms to check that they were clean, we boarded the bus and headed home. i slept some, read a bit, but mostly listened to music while looking out the window. i listened to almost the whole entire Les Miz sountrack [consisting of 3 CDs] once i figured out how to use my CD player, since my mp3 player decided to die on me...again. [electronics never want to work right for me it seems.] after the juice incident, all of the buttons on my CD player somehow got switched. the button to turn the volume up turned the volume down and the volume down button changed the bass boost. the only buttons that still did what they were supposed to were the play/pause button and the stop button...which just shut the whole thing off. i love my CD player. haha. it's got character now. i wasn't really upset about it though, because i've been meaning to get a new one for awhile now.

now i'm home.
and i'm glad to be sleeping in my own bed again.

[heart]
danielle

[eartunes]: nothing actually. i might have to put some josh groban on...
[mood]: good.

HAPPY EASTER!

it's that time of year again.
Easter's a nice holiday...even with the snow.
Jesus rose from the dead today.

unfortunately, i haven't been able to celebrate the holiday the way i'd like, since coldstone owns my life and has made me work every day this weekend.
i really wanted to go to my grandma's...
but i suppose there's nothing i can do about it.

church will be fun tonight.
at least i think it will.
and then after that i go home for a few hours before coming back for the overnighter at the field house before we leave for NYC tomorrow!
i'm tres excited.

not only is it NYC, we're also doing mission work and helping out in the soup kitchens.
AND MY BIRTHDAY IS ON WEDNESDAY!
[i'm gonna be 18!]
[officially legal!]

i get to celebrate my birthday in NYC.
so exciteddd.
even though we're more than likely going to see a mets game on my birthday...
Chris is buying me peanuts and cracker jacks. he promised me.

i'll probably tell you more about the trip once i get back.
right now i'm going to go eat some breakfast before i pack a little then go to work...stupid work.

[heart]
danielle

[eartunes]: josh groban. [smile and awake.]
[mood]: blahhh.

i'm in such a weird mood.
have you ever had that moment where all of the sudden you feel this great pang in your heart?
i just did.

it felt so empty at that moment.
sad.
lonely.

longing.

and i don't even know why.
but it hurts.
i hate the feeling.
because i don't know how to change it.

i think i know what it's longing for though.
love.
to love someone.
to be loved by one person in that special way.

...
even just for a little while.

i hate this feeling.
and listening to josh groban isn't helping for once.

[heart]
danielle